But the thing about remembering is that you don't forget.
You take your material where you find it, which is in your life, at the
intersection of past and present. The memory-traffic feeds into a rotary up on
your head, where it goes in circles for a while, then pretty soon imagination
flows in and the
traffic merges and shoots off down a
thousand different streets. As a writer, all you can do is pick a street and go
for the ride, putting things down as they come at you. That's the real
obsession. All those stories.
As good times sometimes must end, as do
bad times. As such, war stories will not always be horrible. They can be
the day, the soldier received a letter from family, phone call from home, or
even something as simple as the sunset over a valley. It's the little things
that make stories come alive. As your imagination is based upon your life, if
you had only good memories/stories in your life, there wouldn't be a moral or
any character being built.
By changing the topic (more or less), Tim
O'Brien helped give texture and substance to the story, helping the reader
understand that they were just like us. They were young men put in an
environment that expected them to react quickly to the abrupt change. When they
weren't being soldiers fighting for their life, they had a chance to relax,
care for a puppy, and learn how to rain dance among other things.
As Tim O'Brien wrote about the summer he
received his draft notice, he wrote words that described why he left, his
feelings, and the reason for his return. The shame of not wanting "people
to think badly of me. Not my parents, not my brother and sister, not even the
folks down at the Gobbler Cafe." I understand that shame, not in that
context, but the shame or fear of being the cause of others' downfall or
disgrace.
In a way, I think telling stories about
the war because O'Brien's obsession as a way of both punishment and to remember
his past. I think his war stories are his way of punishing himself for being a
coward to go in the first place, and that he even thought about bailing to
Canada. The war stories remind of how he has changed and in a way his pre-war
life is that of another person, "a coward" that went to war.
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